Psalm 34:18

I never imagined I’d be someone to share so vulnerably online. Yet, the healing it brings me, and hopefully others, makes it worth it. If it were up to me, infant loss wouldn’t exist. I wouldn’t wish this path on anyone. However, as a believer, I know Presley has a purpose. This has been on my heart for a while. I’m convinced that Presley’s life, though brief, holds more purpose than we can fathom. Her 33 days have already touched countless lives. Some people spend 80 years fulfilling their purpose, my beautiful Presley needed only 33 days. The number 33 has become especially meaningful to me. Midway through my pregnancy, it became clear that Presley was guiding me back to a relationship with God. My desire to be a better person for her, to pray over her and her health, led me to seek a deeper connection with Him. I approached God broken and desperate, seeking comfort and peace, knowing he would be the ultimate source.

Without Presley, I might never have taken that step. I wanted to be a better person for my daughter and my family. Over the past few months, even amidst trials and tribulations, and quite literally walking through the valley of the shadow of death, I’ve been molded into a better version of myself. My relationship with God has deepened immensely, bringing me peace throughout it all. There’s no doubt in my mind that my baby girl is whole, healthy, and joyful with the Lord. While I long to hold her in my arms, her purpose has been clear to me since I chose to surrender my life to God. And this is just the beginning. I thank Jesus every day for choosing us to be Presley’s parents and for giving us the peace and strength to navigate this journey with grace, continually trusting in the Lord. As I’ve said before, I hold tightly to the promise that Presley and I will be reunited and made whole, free from tears and sorrow.

“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”